Hollow

Wanting to reach out
Pick it up so shiny and heavy.
The blade so sharp.
To place against my pale fair skin

Just one movement
Just one slice
And be gone

Instead I bring it closer
So slowly
Moving the blade
Back and forth
Back and forth

Marked my skin once
Just a mark
Again
Back and Forth

Red it's warm and moist
Gently so slowly it trickles
Down my arm

That’s it
I've made that move
Will anyone notice??
Is this why I did it
For sympathy?

Hide in shame
Cover it up
Am I that desperate
For attention like that

No one will see
No one will notice
I am invisible
I am alone

So many friends
Yet my heart is empty
I long to be free